Maybe there were fewer opportunities for kids to ask for stuff at home. Maybe they only went to the store with me once a week, or went out for any reason at night, or could have a say in what we did on weekends. Maybe it was easier for me to do things on my own without concern for what kids or John would be doing.
When I went for coffee or yoga in the morning, kids were asleep, John had to get ready for work. Now I would be leaving 5 people with nothing to do. Or something. I just can’t get myself to plan and follow through on doing anything I want to do.
Experiment? What happens to a family after its routine is taken away? Suddenly no school, no work, no regular exercise, no permanent home?
I am not doing well with it today. I need yoga. I need some sweat. I need some movement. I do not like inertia. I am being a baby while also being hard on myself. It sucks. Really. Sucks.